What does this mean?- the WH's regrets?

[gatsby11]

Hey,

My original post is under "Learning to be happy alone" or something similar to that, in newcomers.

I put it off for two weeks, but today I finally called my WH to go over some logistics. One of those logistics was discussing divorce. I know that this website delays divorce, but I see it as a financial necessity with a baby on the way. (No legal separation here, but it takes 60 days before the divorce is finalized.)

When I talked through my first two logistics, he was distant, cold, and short. I just kept being pleasant, though, not as a tactic, but just because I don't want to be pulled down. But then I got to the divorce. I just said, "I think we should do an uncontested divorce, which costs. . ." and then he made a weird noise. I thought he was laughing, and I asked him if he was. Then I realized he was crying, and he said he had a bad day. I said I was sorry. I asked if I should call later, or write, or meet in person, and he said I should email him about it. I said okay. There was silence for about 5 seconds and then he hung up.

I called his sister, then, hoping that she had some insight into what just happened. She did. She said that he called her this morning and that he had been missing me-- songs reminded him of me, and stuff like that. It wasn't that he wanted to be back with me, but he moved back into the "confused" place. (He started in confusion, then moved to I don't want you, and now seems to be back in confusion.) He said he has all these things to say to me, but then he remembers that he can't. (Kinda funny, considering he's the one doing it!) She said he said weekends were the worst because he was less busy. (That's what I was saying!) She also said that his therapist said all his feelings were normal, and that if he didn't feel this way, it would be a bad sign.

That bugged me a little, because I don't think the therapist is really for us getting back together. (I don't think he's for anything really.) But since therapy is so directed by WH himself, he could take it back to a reconciliation direction if he wanted to, I suppose.

In all, I feel better at this exact moment. It is comforting knowing that I'm not the only one going through "withdrawal," and I guess my hope is up a bit that he'd be interested in couples therapy. At the same time, I am wary of getting too hopeful because it means more pain. I'm going to try to keep going in the direction of focusing on myself and not let this get me down in the future.

If any of you have insight on what just happened, let me know! I also want to say to many of you-- I had NO idea he was feeling this way. If his sisters weren't so open with me, I would not know. So maybe that could somehow be a comfort to you.

Thanks.