Hi mindfull, thanks for checking up on me. I'm doing OK. Yes I have DD this weekend. Saturday when STBXW came by to drop her off it was pretty rough. DD didn't want to let go of her and STBXW kept prolonging it. The whole episode took almost 20 mins until I finally said to her to just go and she'll be OK! I picked DD up as STBXW left and then DD started wailing. It was really hard for both me and DD but within 5 mins I had her stop crying and laughing again. Since then I'm exhausted just trying to spend every min with her, she follows me around and I can't really do anything else but tend to her. She has said a few things about missing her mom since but just in the passing. When we were having lunch today she pointed at the chair her mom used to sit and said "that's an extra chair, because mommy doesn't live here now". Yesterday, whe also said "I wish mommy still lived with us daddy". I just tell her "I know sweetie, it's OK though because daddy's here and we'll play and have lots of fun together". And we did lots of fun stuff together and she had a good time.

Last night when she spoke with her mom she asked if she could see her today. She answered "maybe, but you have to promise not to cry when I leave, ok?" - I was thinking how do you tell a little kid to not express her feelings and hurt. I guess she wants everyone to be like her i.e. keep things bottled up inside until she's ready to run away from the problems.

Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6
Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks
Aug 2006, left again
Apr 2007, filed for divorce
Dec 2007, reunited
Mar 2010, moved out, filed again