I'd like to join in with you flowmom, r22 and you too Gardener. I relate all too well with what you're going through.
I've been apart from my wife for a year and a half now. I have no desire to look or even imagine a life with someone else. The thought of being alone like this is frightening.
My wide and family gave me so much purpose. Now that they are gone, I find myself lost. I procrastinate even getting bills done.
The hardest part is getting out of bed. Luckily, my job is easy and pays decently well. I have really closed off from people over this time. Done alot of praying.
I am working on changing my thoughts though. I get my daughter each week and that helps. I visit my brother each week and I recently started back up a game night once a week.
I hope this helps but it's a long, painful process.
I am always amazed at the strength people here show by being able to walk away or pick themselves back up and live life again.
