feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

Ok more bad behavior on H part to report. I left yesterday to go to a friends house and I had a great time and a very nice dinner.

I came home didn't say much and went to bed. Younger son wakes me up and says, "dad is being a jerk mom" so I get up to see what's wrong. He had been drinking (3 beers and 2 glasses of wine in him) as usual.....

I go over to H (he is lying on the couch) and say, "what's going on why is son upset?" He starts complaining how son wants to play video games and how he was trying to sleep etc but in nasty tone. Then I uncover him and he has his blackberry in his hand and son starts saying, "dad you're just mad cuz you are caught " son is upset saying dad you are lying that's why you're mad!

H starts cursing and threatening to leave and I try to calm him down and say there is no need for your yelling. He starts saying he is going to take the house away from all of us and how he won't pay any of the bills. My older son just walked into the house when this was all going on.

He says to my older son, "just because I don't want to be married to your mother doesn't have anything to do with you and me." That hurt guys - really. Why do I even let that bother me...my H is disgusting.

He got up and mowed the lawn. I think he is going to go off again today. I feel so trapped