Thank you Snodderly. Your support means a lot! More than you could know.

I really really am trying to keep the focus off of him, and I'm glad that I am able to resist the urge to reply, but the tears have begun again. I know that I will NEVER get the luxury of understanding. Just when I feel like I'm accepting better it seems I have another setback. I don't think this will be a huge setback, but a setback nontheless.

Yesterday I spoke to a friend that I hadn't talked to in a long time. A high school friend, my maid of honour. She divorced 8 or 9 years ago. I remember when she was going through her divorce feeling so grateful that that would never be me. I remember when she went through the anger stage that I was so happy that would NEVER be be.....but as I talked to her and told her of what was going on I could hear myself. I heard the anger. I noticed how I kept bringing the conversation around to what he's doing/done and I couldn't stop. I really don't want this to be ME.


Me 45
M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08
D 18, D 14, S 12