My husband is addicted to an emotional affair

[nicole8]

I just don't know what to do. The H came by today and he is just so distant, moody and irritable. Pretty much everything and anything I do is wrong or will be wrong. I don't know what to do. We were washing cars and I was so annoyed with him that I felt like getting in the car with soap on it still and just driving off as fast as I could. He will say something nice one second but then the next he has an outburst of something rude and mean. It is so disrespectful and I have let him do it for far to long now. I don't know what to do except tell him that he is being mean to me and I don't think there is a need for it. I actually really think he has no clue how he is treating me.

I read in a book about depression that a depressed person gets a "high" of sorts from anger. Something about a chemical that is released in the brain. It made alot of sense when I read it but I can't remember much more of it, I should read this again. I just want to know why he only does his anger outburst to me? Well, and his Mom too. I've seen it before many times. She does the same thing as me and just acts like she doesn't know what to do. But, why can he function and be so pleasant and fun around everyone else on the planet but ME? No wonder he thinks he would be happier if he was divorced.

I don't know what to do. I know I shouldn't talk to him about our relationship, but that has always been his major complaint. That I don't talk about our relationship. But how can I have any sort of a serious relationship talk with him when I feel so far from him emotionally. He has seriously built up this wall around himself, brick by brick. I feel like any sort of "talk" with the OW in the picture is just going to be fruitless. I will be blamed for everything.

I think I need to back off for awhile and just let him be....but what is he thinking? What is he planning for our M? Does he really plan to file for D? Who knows and at this point, I am not sure I really care. Actually, I do really care but I am so lost and hopeless at this point.