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[awest1217]

I am ok. Last night was non-existent. I got there and H tried to hug me. I avoided it (first time in this whole sitch...actually it has always been the other way until yesterday). By the end of the night I felt sick and just wanted to cry. H acted as if nothing was wrong and like this was normal. He was just so happy to hang out with his family.

We text conversated last night and I let him know that I am done and want out. He said he didn't want us to be over, but never once said or did anything to change my mind. He just said he didn't want us to be over in different ways...that he loved me, and that was it. He again brought up my faults and I said I didn't appreciate that because I was very careful to not bring up OW. He said he wasn't saying those were my faults but things he wanted in a wife. I let him know that since he hasn't come home that it must be what I don't show him (too controlling, don't listen, etc). I am still working on those things and have improved immensely, but how would he know since he only seems me once a week and never talk about anything of substance.

We never discussed the visitation agreement, and I asked him a few times last night to please let me know when we can talk about it, but he never said anything. I am of course saving those texts so when I file, I have proof that I tried.

Today I went to drop S off with my parents so my sister and I could go shopping. My step-dad started belittling my mom (normal occurrence because he is emotionally abusive) and I told him he needed to stop. He said no so I said that S was leaving with me. I left with S and S was mad, but he had fun shopping. I pretty much just lost my parental support in helping with s, but I won't have him around my step-father's abuse. Then a friend and my sister were over tonight just talking. It was a good night. Also I got some major sales...50% off shoes for my easter outfit, and S's easter suit for 50% off. I am very proud of that.