Rabbit! I"m so sorry. Don't kick yourself for not keeping ODP - it's the toughest thing to do. And rr is right - you're fighting exhaustion I think and you're going to probably have a few meltdowns. It's ok. You're frazzled. I'm so sorry it's all amess and you're feeling buried. Can't believe H didnt' stay within phone reach. I think the hobbies allow the men to deal with their stress somehow - look at mine - on our bombiversary he spent the day flying...
But your anger is justified you're only human and you've had a ahell of a year. You've been holding the majority of the strength in the relationship for the past year and doing the heavy lifting - something's got to give.
Keep us posted and vent all you want. We're all here for you. Tomorrow's another day - take it in small chunks dear - just tomorrow, and then tomorrow night, and the the next morning...try not to look too far ahead or back. ((LR))xx
Had a nice ride on madam this afternoon bless her she was lovely, especially as she was ridden this morning, but no arguing just fab to ride and even better she misses me lots of her pulling my jumper and a very long snuggly cuddle.
RR you are so right every one thinks it's on the home run when you hit piecing that is so far from the truth, it's when the hard work really starts. After the latest tete a tete on DB I think folks like to hear about good things but I don't think it's as easy to share as they think, piecing takes up so much energy.
Anyway enough of my rambling hope your all well folks!
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W 47 H 47 M 24 T 30
Once lost but now found and happily married again!
LR - if there is one thing I know about you, it is your energy level is amazing, so we all know you can do this! Your positive energy keeps others moving forward, so no matter how much energy you sitch takes, you have it in you. Have a great weekend.
PS - loved he picture of Madam. Thought of it this morning in D4's room where she still keeps picture of her favorite horse from grandparents house!
M39 W41 Two children WAW bomb dropped 11/7/09 Piecing Aug 10 - Nov 10 No longer piecing...Nov 10 Separation Jan 11 EA ends again Feb 11 Piecing attempt #2, Mar 11
LR, sorry to read that the financial worries are at a crisis point. These things drag us down so much. Sending lots of good vibes your way!
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
So glad you got to ride MADAME - feeling better my dear? ox
and yes, I want to see that long list of accomplishments ASAP! You'll be surprised how good it feels. Then print it up and carry it with you for some PMA>
