CMNM

You are in the majority here. this is what everyone has been telling me... and I think you and everyone else is right. its hard to argue when so many people say the same thing. and it sounds right and seems right.

I have learned so much over the last 8 months... though it doesn't seem it yet. I am beginning to think that I will learn things that really will make me a better person and give me a happier life... crazy as that seems.

I am going to be much more focused on my relationships with other people. I used to have relationships with other people for ME. I got what I wanted out of them... if there was nothing in it for me, then no reason to have that relationship. but that is why I am alone right now with not very many friends. so I'm going to make friends and be a better friend to the friends I have. these are the things that I am working on. "bsing" with people. I always thought it was such a waste of time.. but now I understand it is about connecting with people, showing an interest in other people... when you do that people will show an interest in you. and if you don't... they don't.

its been a VERY tough thing for me to learn. these days are absolute hell for me. but I will learn from these mistakes and have a better life because of it.