It's complicated but it's mine #28

[kat727]

Tomorrow I will be gone!! Yippee!! I can do nothing, I can see new sights, I can see former boyfriend... Oh life has taken a decidely upward turn!

Happy St Patricks day! Hope you are all wearing your green unless you are hoping to get pinched.

kat

[Virtually_Handsome]

Can I wear green AND get pinched?

(((((kat)))))

[kat727]

Only if you are wearing the green in a tucked away place if you get my drift!!

kat

[mishka422]

I've got the green going on and I have a headband that has two big clovers on top that say "Kiss me I'm Irish". I didn't wear it to Marc's IEP meeting this morning so I wouldn't humiliate him at school. I'm wearing it to the hospital though. Someone said that I might not want to wear it in case they take me up on the offer and I told them that they are more than welcome to take me up on it! LOL

[FLTC]

kat,

I just read your first ever post and the latest post. Wow! It seems like you have come MILES.

I think, unfortunately, I hung onto a lot of the stuff in DB more than I should have, really believing with my heart of hearts, that I would be able to fix the situation. It never happened. I held onto hope without being able to balance the fact that statistically, reconcilliation was just a fantasy. I would frantically search the internet for statitistics and facts to build up the fact that it "would work out". Holding onto sand. Unfortunately, I think, sometimes this site gives false hope against all odds. If you just focus on "you can save your marriage" you forget that statistically, more often than not, when one person wants out...it's over.

I'm often dismayed by the large number of people posting on this board, but so few on the "Piecing our marriage back together" board.

It seems like you may also have someone old/new in your life.

What's going on with your XH? I'm sure like all the "jumpers" on this board, he has found incredible bliss, tranquility, serenity and above all, happiness (Sure.....lmao!)

[MichelleLT]

I am wearing an orange shirt, white undies, and have a green sweater with me.

Of course, at work I'm in green, but that's every day, thank you Army.

Since my mom grew up Catholic but I was raised Presbyterian, I wear both orange and green.

And Guinness waiting in the fridge for me at home!

[kat727]

You have to read that first post and realize that he had been cheating for nearly 2 years and had already filed for divorce. I went through a lot before I even got here.

It is nice to hear that someone can see the progress I have made. He isn't my problem unless it involves the kids. He is living with his affair partner/fiancee. Yes, he never saw that he did anything wrong and even now wants to preach to the kids that their happiness is foremost over all else. My job is to be their reality and keep them grounded. I think that is what I would have been doing anyway.

Would I like to see Karma come and greet the two of them...YOU BET!! However I am not holding my breath. Keep the focus here, working on me and creating the fantastic life I want. Slow going sometimes but anything worth having doesn't come along without hard work. Oh, I have to remember that when I think of losing some weight! lol

Thanks for stopping by, you are welcome anytime.

kat

[kat727]

I just got home and I am exhausted!! It is starting to sleet so glad I went ahead and came home today.

I would say Branson would have to get a mixed review. Had a problem with the Titanic even though I purchased my tickets ahead of time. They were closed for an event but after explaining time-line etc, the people there arranged to get us in first thing the morning and refund my money!

So we set out to see a couple of other things. Went to the wax museum and the castle of chaos. They were ok but the kids had fun so that was fine with me. Then we set off to find our hotel.

The traffic is absolutely horrible and very stressful. Finally find the hotel and just want to take a nap. the only thing getting me through the day is that K and I have been texting and flirting all day. He decided to go ahead and close early and come meet us. He ends up taking us to a show and dinner. I was willing to pay for the show but he wouldn't let me. Then for dinner I was getting my debit card out but he had already put money out for the waiter (which of the course the waiter took before I could say boo)!! The kids were amazing and did really well even though we were out to midnight.

I feel guilty over what he spent last night(almost $300)!! The kids really liked him and kept saying it was odd to be on a date with your own mother! Was that really a date? Kids keep telling me it was and of course say that K likes me or why else do everything he did?

Went to the Titanic today and really enjoyed that. Then I got the heck out of Branson and went to see a co-worker in Springfield and then off to the zoo. I am going to go take a bath and hit the hay early I think.

Oh and this is the 2nd KU game I didn't watch in order to be with or talk to K.

kat

[karen43]

It sounds awesome!!! Yes, it WAS a date--your kids are right. He must really like you!!! Glad you're back!!! You must be tired after all that!

Karen

[kat727]

Not nearly as tired now but I plan on chilling today. I can't believe how much better I feel than last week. Dare I say I am even happy? Don't want to jinx it I guess and just want things to be good for everyone else too.

Just know that it does get better.

kat