Thanks EVERYONE for all the advice, words...I appreciate it this so much more than you know.
BBJ - yeah it's never easy for sure but goodness I know nothing else much like you. It's sad when his family is saying divorce him, everyone is. It's weird....you go from being married, which is suppose to be the closest two individuals can get right...to just distant strangers, hardly talking. That's what's weird for me. I think doesn't it bother him he doesn't see or talk to us, us being me and our son, that often I mean once twice a week?? Our lives so closely intertwined to nothing. Just weird. Everywhere I drive I have to drive by our house it seems, it's hard to escape. The piece of paper won't change anything except it's legal then. Then I'll feel like I've completely lost him, but I guess I already have. Then I'll be labeled "divorced" which is what I fought so hard to avoid.
I'm meeting some girls for dinner and a few drinks tonight and doing church and the gym tomorrow. Probably a birthday party in the afternoon.
