right now I feel like the only way there is to get my family back. just being honest. I guess I can't get past that. at the least I just want to be able to see my boys.
I am in a rut
I was doing ok there for a while but on call this weekend, w and kids up there going to soccer games, birthday parties and the like.
I miss my kids terribly.
the loneliness and isolation over these 8 months has really worn me down...
hard not to be biding my time until 2 weeks from now when I can move up there... then will be here another 2 weeks.
