ok guys... so here is how it is going... he slept on the couch the first night, and last night. He has also said today that he does not want me to come home on his trip with him, he just wants to spend time with his daughter and his family without all the awkwardness of this whole situation... which really hurts my feelings... but i am pushing too much and i see that... we havent kissed or anything... we did cuddle on the couch today a little bit and he has said that he doesnt want to have sex because he doesnt want it to either confuse his feelings or give me false hope, or make it harder on me if things dont work out. which i guess is understandable, but its still hard. It makes me feel rejected. But I guess i want too much too soon. He said he is in this 100% to make the effort, but it seems more like he is just wanting to wait to see if something happens TO him, not if he can do something FOR it... you know what i mean? But i am talking about R too much and i see its not helping. But i guess i feel like i have no reassurance... someone tell me to stop this!!! I want to just live life, go with the flow... but I wonder how I will know that its actually progress... i dont know, he has only been home one day... i need PATIENCE! I just missed him so much i guess... i want contact so bad and I want his love so bad... if he goes home on his own without what does that mean?
Me: 25 H:25 M: 2yrs T: 4yrs No Kids Bomb: 11 Feb 10 Newcomers Story
