flowmom | need to commit to myself

[flowmom]

Meanwhile I am not doing enough of the activities that I need to be doing: meditation, exercise, paid work, annoying paperwork, expanding my social network, preparing for D. Those activities may help me in the medium turn, but I get NO immediate reward from doing them.

Care to defend that statement?

Do you mean the part about getting no immediate reward from doing those activities? What I mean by that is that while I'm doing those activities and afterwards I just feel emotionally raw and uncomfortable. It may take a long time before a positive feedback loop gets set up: 1. do activity 2. feel good/proud/satisfied/pleased afterwards. Yes, there may be benefits that I will get from those activities that may be noticeable in the medium term, but not in the short term IME.