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[avermont]

Way to go! Boots. Getting hit on!! And feeling yourself the CALM center in the
midst of the crazy whirl of things to do/think about/decide. And your H sounds particularly difficult to deal with.


I'm looking forward to hearing how the job goes.

Keep if up!!

[mindfull]

Tal - The update is AMAZING! I thrive in chaos! Sounds like you do, too!!!

[talia]

Aver... when he called and I told him that I couldn't talk because I was in the middle of something I distinctly heard disappointment! Not sure what he was disappointed about - probably had nothing to do with me getting off the phone....

H isn't difficult... he's flat up F*ing selfish. Its ALL about what he wants, how he feels and what I need to do to "help" him... etc. THATS difficult!

Funny how NOTHING can change over 6 months for someone....

I do thrive in chaos Mind!!!! I just wish it were a different kind of chaos!!

T

[chatterbug]

Its all about HIM you know.... T....

[talia]

Actually CB... Its all about ME now.. his whore mistress can worry about HIM.... That's not my job anymore!

[chatterbug]

I know T.... I was cracking a joke

[rockedworld]

Hi Talia,
You sound like you are doing so well! So great to read that progress!

sorry for the hijack but CB do you have a new thread somewhere?

[chatterbug]

Not yet T.

Going to start one up soon called Surviving and Thriving in the Big D.....

[talia]

So was I CB... ..... I can't be ALL about me.. just mostly about me!

Rocked - its a daily struggle to make it all happen and stay positive! But its a challenge that I'm definitely up for! I have my moments of freaking out... but they tend to pass pretty quickly these days. I'm sure as we finally get something moving legally I won't seem to good I can say that I'm slightly overwhelmed with EVERYTHING that's going on... but I'm making the best out of it... NONE of this is what I wanted for my life, but as long as I'm here I might as well make it the best it can be!
There is still that part of me that wishes I knew exactly what H was thinking, doing, feeling so I could somehow magically "change" this and get him to come home and instantly be the person I want! Delusional... I know.. I miss the man I married terribly but I'm starting to be excited about the possibilities to start over and do it right! I'm sort of stuck in this weird eddy of wanting to continue to DB forever to get him back and wanting to just file the paperwork and tell H to f*ck himself!

I'm sure I'll get pulled one way or the other before I drown!

Hugs

T

[pearlharbr]

Overall, sounds good.

Why are you answering H's calls? And why are you getting H's mail?

There's a good place to draw a boundary. "H, you no longer live here so I will no longer be responsible for your mail. Any mail for you that comes to my house after X/XX will be marked Return to Sender."

Excellent news on the job front! Sending good vibes your way to be hired.

And look at you Miss Sassy! Getting hit on while on a date! That's never happened to me, so yes, I'm a bit jealous.

If you get stuck on the sadness and missing H, think about who H is right now. Do you want to be married to that man? You can't assume that he will change back to the guy you married so you can only make decisions based on current facts.