Well a good friend of mine sadly is visiting the same lawyer on Tuesday. I'll look to her as to what to expect. I really don't see how I can stay in the marriage as there has been so much infidelity....first with my best friend of 10 years...the one that stung the most. Then a trickle of different women, the latest is the 5x felon some of you may know about. I haven't even touched on the alcoholism.
Seems pretty black and white doesn't it? When you spell it out. It's just hard to let go of this, to him. Especially when he was none of these things for the first 10-13 years we've been together.
I'm 31, he's all I've ever known. I've never dated anyone else. It's scary and hopefully maybe at a chance at a decent relationship someday??? But lots of uncertainty.
I feel ya Nik! We could be twins, except I'm 34! So I guess you would be my little sis...
My exH was my second boyfriend EVER, I never did more than KISS a boy before him. And only a few shy kisses at that since my first bf was shy...He is the only one I have ever slept with, lived with, made plans with....so I know it is very scary. Even if it is just a piece of paper, one that doesn't change the day to day life (bc lets face it we are already living without them), the FINALITY of it, the 'official'ness, got to me. I hated pulling the plug but I realized that all the CPR in the world wasn't going to bring him back to me. None of us can save an M by ourselves...
Anyway just know I understand. When you are ready, you will be ready. But even then having some doubts/fears is totally normal. I compared it to amputating a limb. (I know--I'm gross!) If the limb is infected, leaving it attached will only wind up hurting me more...But removing it is removing a part of ME, so that's scary. In the end you have to decide if it is worth the pain to keep the connection...
OK enough rambling. Do something fun, it's Friday!
