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[talia]

So was I CB... ..... I can't be ALL about me.. just mostly about me!

Rocked - its a daily struggle to make it all happen and stay positive! But its a challenge that I'm definitely up for! I have my moments of freaking out... but they tend to pass pretty quickly these days. I'm sure as we finally get something moving legally I won't seem to good I can say that I'm slightly overwhelmed with EVERYTHING that's going on... but I'm making the best out of it... NONE of this is what I wanted for my life, but as long as I'm here I might as well make it the best it can be!
There is still that part of me that wishes I knew exactly what H was thinking, doing, feeling so I could somehow magically "change" this and get him to come home and instantly be the person I want! Delusional... I know.. I miss the man I married terribly but I'm starting to be excited about the possibilities to start over and do it right! I'm sort of stuck in this weird eddy of wanting to continue to DB forever to get him back and wanting to just file the paperwork and tell H to f*ck himself!

I'm sure I'll get pulled one way or the other before I drown!

Hugs

T