Ok, then time to take the Rosetta Stone off the shelf and make some time! Can you do 30 minutes a day? I would love to learn Italian. I tried to pick up a few phrases before I went to Rome over Thanksgiving. Luckily I was able to at least read some basic signs since I have some romance language (French) background. Makes me want to get out my French CDs and work on that just in case I make it back to Paris.
Try not to worry about making decisions about your life without H's input. Honestly, you have to do what is best for you because no one else will. If you're interested in a new job then apply! Just because you submit a resume doesn't mean you have to take the job. It's not like you're considering a move across country or farther. And if you want to do that it's ok to think about it!
Remember, right now you're primary job is to take care of Lola. Figure out how to be the best version of Lola. What does Lola want out of life for herself?
If you love somebody, set them free. http://tinyurl.com/2empx2g