It's good that you are doing stuff for yourself. I used to think about the sitch no matter what I was doing...even had dreams...lol. Couldn't even get a respite while sleeping.
I posted a reply to you on the detachment thread.
I'd like you to post the exact thoughts that are running through your head. It's an exercise I used to do. They are very different on paper than when they're only swirling around in your head. I found out I basically had a few dozen of the same thoughts playing over and over in my head...and none of them were positive.
Write down as many as you can and post them here.
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