If Not Now, When?

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Crap. But you are a survivor. Your kids will follow your lead on things, so show them the way. "Yep, it has to last for three days, but you're going to be with your Daddy and that's going to be great! You need time with your Daddy and he needs time with you, too." "No, Nathan, we aren't married anymore but we are still your Mommy and Daddy and we love you. That's never going to change." I think I said stuff like so often that I may have even said it to the grocery store cashier in response to, "Paper or plastic?"

As for your MIL, tough cookies old lady! We reap what we sow, right? BBJ, I want you to sow a field full of good stuff, that's what you deserve and that's what you're going to get!

Good luck on the job front, I'm sending positive thoughts that all will work out well for you. But remember, there's nothing you can't handle.

Give yourself a break and realize that you don't have to like everything that comes your way. My therapist gave me that gift one day when I was telling her how much I hated that I would miss half of my kids' days. She said that I probably wouldn't ever like it, that I didn't have to like it -- I only had to accept and deal with it. It was such a relief to me and I remember those words often. My Dad's dying of cancer. I don't have to like it, probably won't ever like it. But I do have to accept it and deal with it. Half the battle removed.

((BBJ))