At rock bottom again. Just found out she's booked £1000 worth of spa weekend with the OM. I can't believe it. It's almost like she's trying to wipe out our marriage by spending money willy nilly. SHe's just got probate from her Mum and no doubt feels this is the way to spend it rather than how she was going to previously - on babies.

I'm so gutted. I know I shouldn't have looked but I can't help it. She was never materialistic or spent this much money before except on our wedding.

Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.