tbart01 I still don't recognize my W as the person I once knew. She also went back and forth. Friendly one day very distant the next. It's all part of the play.
You can't sit there with free time. You'll just ruminate on the sitch and get stuck in mental masturbation. I know you read this stuff and it makes perfect mental sense, but that doesn't really mean anything until it gets integrated into your being. It's a process.
When you have down time you really need to keep busy. Physically busy is the best thing. I'm sure that you aren't really feeling like doing much of anything but you have to force yourself. Take a walk, take a shower, workout, play some cards, do something so you aren't sitting alone just running loops in your head. Take up meditation...anything. I made the mistake of not doing much of this and it cost me.
Also, when you post just be patient. Someone will come around to help. Sometimes it takes time.
Two steps forward one step back, one forward two back, it's normal. Don't get down about it just keep trying to move forward.
peace2u I've always liked your posts. It's nice to run into you again. I've just came back a few days ago after not being here since September.
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