the mental what-ifs are whats causing the most difficulty right now. I realize I'm the one causing myself all this grief, but it can be very difficult. She's up and down, and for some reason I can't help but to let it get me up and down.

Sometimes she seems like the person I remember, and at other times she's someone else completely.

I'm trying very hard, and have made great progress the past few months. Unfortunately we do tend to step backwards at times.


Married 18
Me 39
W 37
D 15
D 5
Divorce Filed 8 April 2010
Beginning of Reconcile 8 Sept