Will I ever be forgiven???

[addie]

Mom,
I agree completely with Musclegal's post. I am an LBS who has R with WAH. Before the R, H offered me many apologies which I did not believe. Although his A had ended, he continued to seek out OW and was apologizing to me at the same time. Did I believe his apologies were sincere? Definitely not!
Mom, sorry to be so blunt but I don't see how you can truly be sorry for what you did to your H when you are still living with the OM that caused the break up of your M. I believe that what you are feeling is guilt over what you did that destroyed the lives of so many people and you are wanting to alleviate your own guilt. This shows me that you haven't really grown and changed your selfish ways at all. You aren't concerned about your H. This is all about you - your guilt, the fact you're not happy in the new R.
If you truly care about your H, do him a big favour and don't apologize to him until it is genuine. This can only be achieved over time when you are no longer with the OM who caused the demise of your M and you've gone through IC to fully understand why you did what you did.