I don't always feel like taking the high road right now, though. I'm getting frustrated with her wanting to be free of me at the speed of light, but remain my BFF. She keeps e-mailing me jokes, but this week has tapered off. I think she's finally taken the hint that after she walked out on me she walked out on our friendship. When I think of her now I just get angry. The sadness has receded to a dull ache. Mostly I feel happy, and free, and more like myself than I have in years. I just want to make this a clean break. I'm thinking of telling her I want to divorce immediately instead of dragging it out and being separated. It's hard not to be resentful and spiteful toward her for wasting 12 years of my life to end up with nothing.
