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I think you could make a living as a professional poker player- all those tournaments you won

I like what you have to say. when it is all said and done, at the very least as you point out, by doing what I am doing I am giving it everything I have. making a statement about what is important. then perhaps one day I will be able to sleep (note the time I am posting) and know I did give it my all. I do think this job would allow me more time with my boys-- to some degree. less high profile, less stressful-- and probably ok to leave in the afternoons to go to ball games and the like.