Hey G-man, I have not been around for couple days, for some of the same reasons others posts.
Your last couple posts scared me man, you are worthy of living a great live that YOU decide.
I think sitting around the house all the time is a bad precedent, you need to get out and do SOMETHING. I have at times, just gone to the local Borders or Barnes and Noble, couple bucks for coffee, read some magazines and people watch, you'll realize there is life after this, and you can have a great life.
Find some local places to hike, and watch the people, and the kids having fun, and not because you are missing that right now, but because there is more out there for you see and do and find that this life is too precious to just wait in the house.
You are a strong, compassionate, caring person who can build a life that is full, fulfilling and rewarding! There is only one person that can help with that, and that's you.
Keep your head up, you can handle it! Love this weather in the Northeast, I can't wait to get outside and just watch the clouds go buy and begin building my future for me!
You're right on all counts. Fear not, I am back to hiking, back to Borders and back to chatting/flirting after a long hiatus. Just fun and affirming, though: I am in no way "relationship-ready", as they say and won't be/don't want to be for a while. Thanks for your concern and suggestions. But the only way to spare you guys bothersome, negative posts is to NOT write them. And usually I NEED to write them. We all do at times, and they are often just so much venting and almost self-spewing, rather than red-flags and intervention time (but I always appreciate - and marvel at - how quickly the cavalry charges in when needed!). Very special people here at DB. Very special. I have my moments (don't we all?) but while the progress may often be slow, it is, at least, more often than not in the right direction.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac