G-Woman, Still in counseling, but made no emergency call to IC; I was very, very distraught emotionally but knew I could -and had to - work, to wrestle this through on my own to make sure it would never come back. It was a night, for sure. Emotional/adaptive child "victim" wound up submitting to rational, functional adult "victor", as I just put to gnosis in the .alt. It was a night for giving the demons full reign and then reigning their asses in. In subsequent IC, session, IC thought the duality of the struggle guaranteed that the stronger, resilient adult would prevail. I was in depths of anguish and despair, but a stronger part of me was rally pi$$ed that I was there - or allowing myself to go there. Also just told Gnosis that being to Hell and back confirmed that I still knew the route. Sometimes you just gotta roll up your sleeves, get down in the mud with the demons and rassle 'em, no matter how long it takes. I came away stronger.
Blood work is done every 6-8 weeks no more D meds, just amino acids and other neurotransmitter supplements.
SIL? I just questioned the sudden timing after couple of days of friendly chatter. My only question was a sincere, respectful, please tell me how I may have offended you who I would never knowingly offend.
Not taking it personally; no assumptions.
That door stays open; she and I "got" each other the moment we were first introduced years ago...been that way ever since.
Last night was money stress. More background noise than obsessing. Wasn't anything I could do about it anyway, so I didn't fight it or avail myself of any resources or remedies. I just busied myself with other things and the night flew.
Thanks, Gyps.
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Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
