5 more days till the Big D

[brknheart]

my group is a lot larger and growing all the time now that I'm not spending 99 percent of my emotional energy trying to figure stbx out.

That is my goal, to make a good group of friends. I need this. One of my mistakes during our M was not having my own friends. We had the same circle of friends and guess who has those friends now. I considered my W my best friend. I would rather spend time with her than anyone else.

As far as figuring out stbxw, its a lost cause. I still have those moments and I hate them. I will never know why she did what she did, I dont even think she knows. My W has some deep psychological problems. Im not just saying that because of the D, she really has changed and others have seen this. Even though I feel that I dont want her to succeed in life, a small part of me hopes she get the mental help she needs. Her disorder will only get worse unless she gets help.