I just thank God that this is over for you, and you got a lollipop to take home with you. because that will grow and expand in your soul--that even the "enemy" knew the truth about your being a wonderful father.
I remember the first time D14 left our home with her father after the split. I cried, I wailed, I thought I would die. I made my dogs howl, in fact. And for months and months, I pretty much languished while she was gone. It just seemed the only appropriate way to "be." But eventually I began to use the time to get some balance in my life, to nurture myself, to have some quiet time--which made me a better mom. It's horrible in the beginning, I won't lie to you, but one adjusts. and as I said in an earlier post, you can still talk to your kids daily, read stories over the phone, attend school events...it will be okay, Frank. It will be far better than it looks right now. I promise.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012