Also let me add this: I have essentially hidden from her the pain the above revelation caused me. Such as, didn't sleep last night, and experiencing waves of deep, intense pain. I got from a book that you should act happy and like everything's fine. It's appalling though hearing her on the phone in such a happy, chipper way, and I am really going thru a grief process. Is this the right way for me to be handling it? Seems somewhat deceitful.
