I think I have calmed down. Going to the attorney yesterday really had me off balance. All day yesterday...I was back and forth..do it/don't do it/do it/don't do it. I am not sure why I felt like a decision needed to be made but I was putting alot of pressure on myself to make one. I filled out all the papers but the attorney is going to hold onto them. When I am ready- give her a call and we are ready to go. phew...
I was supposed to call H last night about dealing with basement floor/water issues. A friend of mine came over unexpectedly so I didn't make the call. I texted him later in the night to apologize and that I would give him a call today.
Today-He told me that it didnt appear like I wanted to work on things. I told him that we need to work on being friends first and mutual respect. He apologized for 'Are you blind?' dog poop comment. He said that he was out of line and shouldn't have spoken to me that way?????!!! Wow- an apology. He asked if we could talk tonight. He sounded like 'nice/rational' H.
Reading about detachment all day...I really want this to sink in... Pearl...definite control issues I need to look into..I never feel like the need to be in control of everything until I feel like I am completely out of control..and I hit the panic button.
