My future shouldn't have to be defined by my past..
How much have you learned, grown, changed and improved over the last twelve months? Your future will be shaped by the actions you take today. You were wise and brave enough to look at yourself and make healthy change for yourself. Not everyone can do what you have done.
"Love your neighbor as yourself." Name one person you wouldn't forgive for making a mistake.
When I was first seperated I used to have awful dreams and wake up sobbing. One night I felt a hand on my upper chest by my throat holding me down and a voice saying "Enough, enough, enough." It was God telling me to let go of the hurts I held in, the shame I felt, and the anger that was holding me back. That's when I started "loving myself."
You are handling it.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.