I had my blood tests today and then ate spinach, nuts, vitamin C, and folic acid, iron in a tablet, I rested the whole day and now I feel better.
I had laser done on my face today, something I wanted to do for ages. I used to have nice skin and I got some dark skin scars on my cheeks that I hated. So now, I look like I have some terrible skin disease but hopefully the result will be worth the embarassement...
My dad stayed in the hospital today, he will have chemo done tommorow. My mom just got back and she called him and they way they talked to each other... ahhh, so romantic, the tone of her voice, the devotion, the love... I listened, "thirsty" to have some of that kind of deep feelings brush off on me... (excuse my English).
I used to believe I wasnt romantic. 1,5 years ago, I finally accepted romance is part of my personality, behind the control freak mask, the realistic, pragmatic, cynical approach I have, I am just a fool for romance... And who ever is with me, needs to accept that.
H and I had another "fight" on the phone. About how did I chose this doc for my skin. Truth is my criteria were recomendations and ...location. She is close to my house. With H working every single night, if I want to do anything while the kids are at home, it has to be close so I can bring them along or leave with my mom or something. He started saying this isnt the case. I said, it doenst matter what you say, facts are that my life is adjusted to your schedule, I didnt choose it, you cant change it, but at least accept it and lets see what we can do about it.
3 years ago, I wouldnt have said anything, not to make him feel guilty but I would be sitting in anger and bittereness, everytime I couldnt find a gym the hours that matched the babysitters hours, everytime I was using my parents, everytime I would miss an event etc etc.
Now, I make things happen, dont expect anything from him, but wont take any BS either... I am happy this way.
Sprign is here and I feel like getting...pretty and fresh and taking care of me. FOR me. Need to loose 2 kilos to be my ideal weight IMO, and once I get this iron thing fixed, I will start somekind of activity with my kids to get my body ready for the beach... K
