how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

my trip was incredible. i wrote a bit more about it, i think it's on page 37 of my thread. i met some really great people and did a lot of really hard work. but it felt so good to be home again, i came home feeling (exhausted!!) and totally refreshed.

it's so hard to break myself from the saving cycle...every time he cries out, i want to hold him and quiet his tears. in reality, he brought all of this on himself with his actions, but i'm still overcome with the desire to be there for him, even though i know there's nothing i can do...