how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

thanks, pearl. i try to DB with my mom, but she makes it so hard. i feel like an UTTER FAILURE that i am ruining her happy life because i don't have any children and she's going to be dead by the time i do. i mean, i'm not even 30!! just because she was married for ten years by the time she was my age doesn't mean that i have to follow in her footsteps. my mom just doesn't seem to understand a world in which there is something a woman wants out of life OTHER than having lots and lots of babies.

got an email from my H this afternoon, he is in a low, low place. i wish i could help him out of it but i know i can't do anything but listen. he did say he had another IC session today and wasn't up to going back to work afterwards. i hope he doesn't let himself lose his job over this...cause i still depend on his income, too. awful as that sounds. this is the first time i've ever seen a personal problem affect his work and professional life so much...