You are married with no D on the table and no progress toward D. It is certainly not time to be thinking about other romantic Rs. You are where you were years ago, or backwards a bit. At one time it seemed as though you might actually D. No, you are just coasting.
You fret and get through all the events you describe. You are pleasant. You wear a brave face. They never seem to leave you happy. And, they surely narrow the space in your life for any real romantic partner to close to nil. Not that that matters -- your W isn't your romantic partner and you are firmly married, so you ought not have another.
