Haven't done any of those things for myself yet... kinda too broke at the moment but I will. Have been going for walks pretty regularly with CB's encouragement.
Today I am working very hard at not getting taken down to the bottom of the roller coaster ...yet AGAIN... by H's moods. But, because I have made a decision not to let this happen, I seem to be doing better with it. H was very down last night, talking about how he hates his life, blah blah blah. I am trying to keep validating and listening but sheesh.... I am losing patience. There is a lot of good in our life. How long do I need to keep listening and validating all this negativity! This was AFTER his IC appt, which he didn't want to talk about. She has made a referral for him to do EMDR too with another therapist. I hope that will help.
In the meantime, I keep wondering if H can't find a way to get emotionally well whether it will be healthy for me in the long term to stay in this M. It is so exhausting and draining.
Then, I visited a couple of friends in the "surviving the big D" forum and read the pain there... and think "I should be grateful I am in piecing. I don't want my kids to go through this."
So, back to my daily routine of trying to focus on positives, trying to be "mindful", trying to be grateful... but, in the end feeling stuck and sad and ripped off.
*sigh* then... feeling guilty that I should be more grateful.
kinda too broke at the moment but I will. Have been going for walks pretty regularly with CB's encouragement.
