I started to tell H that i knew this was the anniversary - and he raised his voice, stopped me, and said, "Do everyone a favor, STOP RIGHT NOW AND WALK AWAY."
I know better. The silence was killing me though. I guess it's nice to know he's human andnot an android sometimes.
It cuts to the core. His rage is still there under the surface and he still can't talk to me about it.
I'm proud of your H for shutting down that conversation. You've complained about him baiting you...but this was a case where it could be seen as you baiting him. Was he expressing rage or doing some self care? What possible good would have come of having that conversation? Is that the kind of anniversary that you want to mark in your life together?
And good for you for asking for a hug. I'm really glad to read that initiating non-verbal communication helped you get what you really wanted: connection and reassurance.
initiating "the talk" = cheeseless tunnel initiating physical connection = getting the cheese
(((H4L))) I know you're struggling right now.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
