WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

Wow - didn't realize how long it's been since I've journaled here. Guess I'm getting a life LOL

The divorce train is continuing forward as I've responded with all the financial crap before the "hearing to compell" me to respond. I know financially the crap is an issue for her as she was never good at managing finances to begin with let alone having to pay half her check to me for support. We're gonna have to do taxes soon... we always owe a 5 figure amount.... so I know she's stressing about that. Our lawyers already said that we would have to split the tax bill.

Another new development, which is bitter sweet is that I will be starting a new job on March 29th. It was that lowball offer place that I asked for another 20% and they went radio silent for about 5 weeks. Guess they realized that even with another 20% on top of their original offer, they were getting a bargain. I'm taking about a 30% paycut but at least I'm close to my boys and only have to for one place of residence.

The downside now is that I will no longer see my boys during the day. It was nice to have the one on one days with my 3 year old and spending a few hours each week with just my 7 year old. I know they both really appreciate it and had looked forward to it as much as I do. In fact last Monday I had another interview so I couldn't spend the one on one day with my 3 year old and he was very upset about it. My 7 year old cries every other week about how we barely have any one on one time with each other. It's soooo upsetting.

I know they miss me as much I as miss them when they aren't with me. When they are with their mother, we talk every nite for about 20-25 minutes before they go to bed (that's even with me seeing them during the day!). When they are with me, my 3 year old doesn't want to talk with her when she calls and my 7 year old is on the phone for just enough time to say goodnite.

I still haven't told my her I got a job yet. I'm sure she's gonna be happy as she won't have to pay out half her check but also upset that I took such a big pay cut so I'm no longer gonna be the cash cow. Ironically, she may still have to pay me a very small amount as I make slightly less than her (about $500/year).

I did tell my lawyer so he will tell her lawyer so she will hear eventually.

I didn't tell my boys yet as I didn't want them to get upset about "losing" the one on one days with me.... I'm gonna have to do that next week though.

On a personal get a life side.... I did go out with a someone last Friday. She was really nice and we're trying to make plans to see each other again, but with the schedule with my boys... that may not be for another 4 weeks (she's out of town the next weekend I don't have my boys). Oh well.... she needs to realize that my boys are my priority.... the person I meet will need to respect that....

So life continues..... my WAW is not looking back.... and I'm started to look forward......

Thanks for everyone's support