Going straight forward...antlers 6th thread.

[antlers]

Hi G.

I don't know. She's just been sending me more mean texts in the past month or so than she has in the past.

Anyway, the kids and I had a pretty good trip in San Antonio. We just got back last night. We had some bumps, but overall it was a good trip for us all. I'll post more about it later.

They like to go to Barnes and Noble so we went to one down there, and I happened upon a book about forgiveness. It caught my eye because it's something I've been struggling with for over a year (forgiving myself). It's called The Forgiveness Formula by Kathleen Griffin. I started reading it sitting in the Alamo Plaza while my kids were playing in the attractions across the street. I'm liking it so far. It also gives me some more insight into her being able/not able to forgive too. But I'm reading it for me.

Why is it so difficult for us to forgive ourselves for the mistakes and bad things we've done. We are much more willing to forgive others for their mistakes and the bad things they've done...even when those things have hurt us to the core!

I just got back from a 25 mile ride and I'm headed out to do some more physical activity. I plan on reading more from now on to nurture my mind and learn. The kids went to Texas last night with their mom and won't be back till Sunday or Monday.

This was the first time I've gone to San Antonio without her in nearly 2 decades; it was always a special and fun place for us to go.

I honestly can't think of anything that I wouldn't forgive her for, over time ...so I should be just as willing to forgive myself for the wrongs I've done that hurt others as well as myself. I'm working on it.

TTYL,
antlers