The latest with me

[ImprovedRomeo]

Thank you ladies! and I do appreciate you checking in on me. To be honest I'm not sure where I'm headed with all this but at least I can take control of part of the situation - whatever's in my power.

Yesterday worked out as planned. Sent STBXW this email:
"I'll pick DD up from school today. Sure, you can keep her on Fri if it helps you."

I think I should've left out the 'if it helps you...' part. Anyway got to DD's school early picked her up, she said she wanted to sleep at mommy's house today but she wasn't upset about it. We went to the grocery store, I let her pick out fruit etc. Got home, rode her bike, then she played with the neighbor's kid for a bit, then I had her work on her homework while I got some dinner ready. Ate dinner, she watched Caillou on Netflix (hooked to our TV) then it was time for bed. She again said she wanted to sleep at mommy's and that she wants mommy to pick her up the next day. Kinda broke my heart because I've been trying to be the best dad/pal to her but I understand every kid wants their mommy for comfort. I told her we'll call mommy after reading the bedtime books and we did (well she did). She told her to pick her up from school tomorrow and STBX said 'yeah, ok if daddy's OK with it' - I didn't say anything I didn't want her to even hear my voice (she was on speaker).

Anyway, last night was tough because she wanted me to sleep in her room again and the hard cold floor's no good for my aging body. I tossed and turned most of the night and around 3AM the electricity went out! of all the times! it got pitch dark and quiet and that woke DD up and then she kept wanting to hold my hand or she kept wanting to talk etc. Finally, I was just starting to fall asleep again and riiiiing riiiing my 5:40AM alarm goes off ugh! I got up, found the flash lights, start getting her toothbrush etc ready and the lights came on whew! Anyway, off to school shortly afterwards and she said she started talking about getting 'littlest pet shop' toy and I said we could go and take a look next time. She immediately said 'daddy, actually I want you to pick me up today'. I told her she could still stay with mommy and we could go see the toys next time but now she was adamant that I pick her up. So I guess I'll pick her up today afterall.

I won't be initiating any contact with STBXW today. I know there's a fine line between showing independance and showing you're pissed off at them and I hope she doesn't take it as the latter.