Wish I could say well, Sandi. Have not been in a very good mood and have been contemplating many things. I talked with W Tuesday because things have taken a step backwards. We were talking well and interacting fine, but here has been something there stirring up the tension again. So I met her at a local park to talk. I asked her what was going on and she said that she felt like she felt uncomfortable when she would come home at night. I asked why and she said she does not know. I know her and this means she knows but will not say. But we got down to the fact that she does not have the same feelings about me that she used to have. I nicely said ,duh!!! I told her I am not the same person I was 2 months ago. She said I know, I have been impressed by the change. I thanked her and said that I never want to be the person I used to be. I have learned and grown more in the last month and 1/2 than I have in my entire life.
I know what the problem is. She is still hurt by the things I did and she is afraid to open herself up to the hurt if she does and I go back to the person I used to be. I do not blame her, but how can I convince her that it is not the way it is gonig to be. I think we cleared a huge hurdle, as she does not want to leave, but at the same time I am not suer she is ready to start working on things. She is sort of, but very hesitant as she is afraid of being hurt again. How do we get past these problems? It really is the only thing I see as blocking reconciliation. But it is a huge obstacle. What should I do? I am not so sure time and space is the answer.
