It's been hard trying to do for me while I'm figuring out a way to bust up his affair and go to owH.
You can choose to be a victim or a strong, confident, self-respecting and wise woman. Your choice. I don't believe you don't know what to do. I think you are scared and don't love yourself enough to stand up for yourself. The first step in not being a doormat is get up off the floor. You can handle it.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.