Well, if it makes you feel any better- -this past July, (our 12 year anniversary) I was writing my H a "goodbye" letter that I read to him in counseling the next day.
H had already said that he wanted to not speak/see each other for 3 months the week before and so we had scheduled one last counseling session where I would get to express all my thoughts and feelings on the matter. And they were not nice thoughts and feelings, let me tell you. I was *especially* angry that I had to write this on our anniversary. I was bawling as I wrote it.
I hope you do something nice for yourself today.
Me-43 H-46 M 12 yrs 7/09 T 15 2 grown kids bomb 7/05/07 H moved out 8/04/07 11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing
