My thoughts are with you. I know how hard it is. Try to let the anger go first. Think of a word that's happy and when you feel that anger or the urge to contact W say the word until the thought goes away. All this emotion is triggered by thoughts so control your thoughts.
Try it. It works for me. Sometimes I am so pissed I can't remember my word.
Grit
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am