THanks. I needed to hear that. I"m working hard on PMA and reframing things as positive but I honestly don't know what is reality sometimes. I could also see him as being superficial and avoiding intimacy. But I am going to see that friends could lead to more...I get scared that it could also be the "let's be Divorced FRiends" crap too but I'm trying not to let fear of the unknown run my life anymore!
Tonight I"m more glum. We were apart extra days as S was sick and we didn't want to risk infecting our main breadwinner so H stayed away!
Also probably because of the bombiversary. I came home tonight late and he's watching Dog the Bounty Hunter. lol. I feel like bonding talking catching up I"m so full of emotion and his laying in front of the tube passively not talking to me feels so cold. Trying to not take it as rejection. I"m trying to stay positive and tell myself it probably isn't meant as against me, he's probably tired, and certainly as a guy doesn't want to talk about anything.
I just miss him darnit and all my panic is coming back as he is more absent this week. My panic is back with the bombiversary. My desperation and fear is creeping back and I've tried all day to keep it under wraps.
I wish I could feel done like you did - so that all this doesn't get to me so much. The more afraid I get of his distance, the more I feel the urge to pursue, but I'm determined not to. Result is I feel empty and scared. I"m probably freaking out over nothing - often am. Time to impliment the 24/48 hr. rule. Sorry for the vent.
