5 more days till the Big D

[~Sol]

Hey Brknheart - poet is right. You're at the place I was about 3 years ago. Believe me, I thought that I could not survive this, and what I know now, and I can tell you for sure, is that it will get easier with time. Looking at your sitch you are still fresh with the D talk, separation, all of it. It's too much to process all at once, and there are thoughts of uncertainty and emotional trauma, and I'm sure you have some good days and you have some bad days. Am I close? I never thought that I would move on - and it takes one day at a time. Now I am at a point where I can start dating seriously, but still cautious about it. I tried to forgive my X too - sometimes I'm doing good, and don't have any negativity towards her, and others - well, I try to control my emotions the best I can - but sometimes it's ok to have a good cry and let it all out. Men have feelings too! But don't let it eat you up man, there is a whole world out there.

I remember something someone told me here on the boards - even though my heart was torn, I would find a good woman that would love me for me. I am getting there, and I may have that person now in my life but I'm not sure yet, the point is that I left a really-really bad and crappy M, and I'm all the better for it. I think you will be too!! You may not be able to forgive her now, and that's ok. But one day you will need to dig deep and learn to forgive in a way that you know how - so you can move on and heal.