Starting Over (Again)

[Cautious]

Thanks as always, Quart. I really needed some encouragement today.

Today went fairly well. Managed to keep it cool as I dropped off S5, even though I was slightly miffed by ExCautious's actions. Made small talk with ExFIL, but kind of abruptly ended it because of the miff... eh, you win some you lose some. I'll do better next time, he's always been more of a father to me than my own and I'd hate to damage that connection. (Don't worry, I'm not overindulging either, it's just awkward and I'd like it to be smoother)

Got home, took a nap. School today was exhausting & I guess I used all my energy being a "team leader". That's a long story that can be shortened by simply saying I intend to come back to the school to teach in 3 years, so I go over and above in class.

ExCautious showed up while I was just arriving home from picking up a special request from S5. Strange sidenote: S5, who NEVER calls for the 2 hour visits, called around 7pm tonight. Just to chat. Really weird, but he didn't really mention anything. Sometimes he's afraid to say things because he'll get in trouble with me or ExCautious for "tattling". But he didn't bring it up tonight either. So I'll just let it go. He's had to act well above his age since this whole process started, I can't expect him to outright say "I am having trouble with my relationship with you/daddy because I am not recieving enough attention/praise". I'll just keep an eye on things and try to work it out when it becomes more clear.

So I was juvenile. I'll admit it. But the overall effect, I think, will probably work out to my advantage. ExCautious was in his "dressed up" clothes. So I said "Have fun on your date." and walked away. To which he initially said "Okay!" Then changed to "Wish that's where I was going!" I said nothing, just kept walking. Got my popcorn popping, just waiting for this to pick up speed so I can watch the wreck. I hope there will be 3-D glasses.