5 more days till the Big D

[ClingingToHope]

BH, I could have typed that word for word. My big struggle early was the LBS syndrome of thinking she just has this great life without me.

Look, the statistics MWD has uncovered show that the WAS five years later has a vastly lower standard of living and the majority have not found happines and wish they would have worked harder at fixing what they had.

So her pain is coming.

Your W is like mine. By the time it was actually "over" it had been over a long time for her. I realize that now. It's taking us time for it to be "over." But it will be. If you read the veterans on here, the ones who have been D for a couple of years or more, the pain mostly goes away.

I'm not nearly there. I have my girls tonight and a busy weekend ahead so I'm feeling good. Yesterday, I had a really bad wave of emotion in the afternoon.

I feel guilty as well about wishing pain on the WAS. Someone told me I'll really be over things when I not only stop wishing pain on my W but actually wish her well.

Today, I can't imagine it. I hope it's true.

You know what the true revenge is? A life well lived. Imagine yourself running into her in 10 years. Well dressed. Happy. Money in the bank. A new person to share your life with. Imagine that conversation.